journal

I'm just gonna type what i put in my journal. 

6/16/14 

Questions around me, why do they always surround me? I am listening to,  but my mind is talking over you.  So don't expect me to listen to your nonsense.  

What if it's true, what if this is all that I can be? But what if it's you?  What do you want from me? 

Reality = bullshit. 

You know, at first I was afraid of writing swearwords in here but now, I don't give a fuck.  If you dislike it, then leave.

Please stop slapping me in the face with those harsh words you spit.

I hope that you are happy when you make me sad?

I hope you know you make my life a living hell.

I don't know how I am smiling while writing this.

I hope you burn in hell, because I want you to feel the same pain you make others feel.

I hope I get to witness when Karma makes you suffer. 

Call me evil, but this is how I feel. 

I really do hope you know.

Sometimes I ignore you, so I feel in control. But really, I adore you, and I can't leave you alone.